I think this phrase gets used a lot in my blogs, but damn, Ive learned so much-- about myself, my capabilities, about the world, and all of its different people and cultures. I'm actually glad that I always say that I've learned a lot because learning should be one of life's constants. Everything about this summer consisted of experiences that has truly broadened my perspective. Of course, Costa Rica has taught me a lot (which I have previously expressed). 

But another unexpected and inevitable experience has taught me a lot about myself as well. (Ahh..here I go with the personal emo business, sorry!) I fell in love again...and even though it didn't end up the way I had wanted, I'm thankful for the experience. I opened up a part of myself that I thought I could never unleash. For three years, I've had this " I dont need a man" attitude, too scared and too proud to put my heart on the line again. Everytime I wanted to express and share my feelings, I always held back and kept it locked in. But ___ has made me believe in LOVE again! And damn, it was beautiful...

I'm honestly really sad that it had to end because there is going to be so much that I'm going to miss...but all I can do now is trust in God that it was because there is something else in store for me. I thank___  for putting a lot into perspective for me because now I see the situation in a whole different light. 

"Take me out of the picture."

 I used to think that I had some kind of sixth sense with him..haha. As crazy as it sounds, all these years I always felt that there was something supernatural that kept me drawing me to him. After not talking to him for forever, I would all of a sudden see everything that reminded me of him again and then a couple days later he would call and we would try to work things out again. These signs always had the same outcome and were without a fail, so I began to (naively) take it as a sign of destiny. But this last time that it happened...he never called. The "signs" never were signs of destiny, they were just little emotional attachments that I never let go of. The number 27 is just a number. Packers are just a football team. His name is just a common name. Seeing these reminders over and over again isn't any persuasion of fate, its just me trying to connect everything that I see back to him. It really is what it is. It's been a crazy endless roller coaster of emotions but now that I know I can love again, I'm ready for it with open arms, a clear and healthy mind and a clean slate. 

Wow. I really went off tangent with that one. A little too much insight, but oh well. Ha. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm really happy with my life right now. This summer, I've made efforts to improve myself and challenged myself in all aspects. I've accepted what I couldn't change and am ready for whatever God has in store for me. This school year, I'm going to try to approach it in all the right ways. In my classes, work, internship, sorority, clubs...I'm really going to give it my all. With positivity and courage in my heart and all the lessons learned, I'm ready to get down to business, get on my grind and have a shitload of fun.