I've been having the urge to stop and reflect on myself, but I didn't want my first entry to be negative, so I've waited until I could get to THIS point.
This week was rough. Boy oh boy. The rigorous pre-med courses, my monotonous job at the research lab, busy intern work at the hospital and the never-ending, mentally and physically EXHAUSTING life of a sorority pledge...*sigh* If I could only share my experiences...
I hit a really low point this week. Exhausted, discouraged, no motivation...I would walk to school/work and just stop in my tracks and sit down-- not wanting to keep going. A bazillion things to do, NO time, and not a singe inch of me WANTING to do ANYTHING at all.
But! I'm done feeling sorry for myself.
"We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same"- Carlos Casteneda
And I think I put in enough work being miserable. I'm ready to be strong again. It's times of struggle that we discover our true character and I want to be someone that I'm proud of. And even if my day is rough and seemingly impossible to tackle, I want to be able to go to bed knowing I gave it my all and wake up feeling stronger and ready to do it again even better.
I've gotta stop looking at the bajillion things I've gotta worry about and accomplish one task at a time, because in retrospect, Life aint really that bad. Aint that bad? Actually, Life is FUCKING good.
There is soooo much more I should be happy about than there is to be stressed over.
I'm currently...
- gettin' back on my A-game-- with school and "business"
- getting back on that positivity tip.
- taking it day by day from a fresh new start. Meeting at the 50 & applying what ive learned from what Ive lost-- prepared for the worst but HOPING for the BEST.
But! I'm done feeling sorry for myself.
"We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same"- Carlos Casteneda
And I think I put in enough work being miserable. I'm ready to be strong again. It's times of struggle that we discover our true character and I want to be someone that I'm proud of. And even if my day is rough and seemingly impossible to tackle, I want to be able to go to bed knowing I gave it my all and wake up feeling stronger and ready to do it again even better.
I've gotta stop looking at the bajillion things I've gotta worry about and accomplish one task at a time, because in retrospect, Life aint really that bad. Aint that bad? Actually, Life is FUCKING good.
There is soooo much more I should be happy about than there is to be stressed over.
I'm currently...
- gettin' back on my A-game-- with school and "business"
- getting back on that positivity tip.
- taking it day by day from a fresh new start. Meeting at the 50 & applying what ive learned from what Ive lost-- prepared for the worst but HOPING for the BEST.
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